Easy as the click of a button

When I was reading over one of the essays I had to write for my many applications this week, I right clicked on the highlighted changes Mom had suggested. It gave me the option to either "accept change" or "reject change." If only life had such buttons. With one click I could accept the enormous changes in front of me (transferring schools, moving home, commuting, working, changing majors, rearranging friendships) and have them settle in as if they were no change at all. Or, I could reject those changes altogether and have things continue on as previously planned. Of course, as with the paper, in doing so I would risk unfulfilled potential, mediocrity which never reaches the goal, meaning left undisclosed. Every piece of writing is better for a little editing--even life stories. But in editing you must discard one ending for another. There is always the possibility that the first one would have been good too. Unfortunately, in life there are no buttons. So, while we do either accept change or reject it, thwarting it entirely is out of the question and nothing about the decision to do either is going to be so easy or instantaneous. I have mostly accepted my current changes--the existence and inevitability of them--but for now I am back at Gordon, living in the possibility of an ending that isn't going to happen, while word by word I edit for a different conclusion.